About Me


Greetings Earthlings!

Thank you for taking the time to stop by and spend some time with me!!

I thought I would introduce myself. My name is Ashley, but I did choose to be known as Teal Nebula on the internet. How did I choose that name? Well, Teal is my MOST FAVORITE color (any and all shades of blue, teal and turquoise) and, ever since I can remember, I've had an obsession with all things outer space! If I had done better in school and math didn't make my head spin, I would have loved to become an astronomer or astrophysicist (or an archaeologist... But that's an other story for an other time... 😉) So, when deciding what my pseudonym should be, it was only natural to go with my favorite color and something from outer space...  Teal Planet just didn't have the same ring to it, Moon was kind of obvious and Supernova was a little extra, so, I choose Nebula. Consequently, images of Nebulae are some of my most favorite things to look at and meditate on! Have you ever seen the Pillars of Creation?

So, how did I come to identify as an Agnostic, Pantheist, Pagan Witch? It's a mouth full, isn't it? Well, I'm Agnostic because I truly believe deep, down in my soul, that no matter what we think happens when we die, you absolutely never know for sure, at least, not until you're already there... There are lots of beautiful (and not so beautiful) theories of what people think might happen, but the only way to know for sure is to die. So I like to keep an open mind, since you never truly know, any of the literally MILLIONS of theories could be correct, all of them could be, or none of them... You just never know. 

I'm a Pantheist because I believe that if there is SOMETHING out there, some Life Force or "God," then all of the things in this world, this universe would be a part of that Force. Everything is holy, everything is sacred. Everything contains within it that Divine spark of life! Life is a miracle, whether you believe in woo or science or any combination of the two.

I am a Pagan because I do not follow any of the Abrahamic religions. I was raised Christian - Free Will Baptist to be exact. I remember questioning everything I was told, from an extremely young age. I would lay in bed at night, saying my "prayers" and really more having conversations with God. I would ask questions like: "Why am I here, in this body?" "Why was my soul placed here, in this life?" "What was my purpose in this life?"  "Why wasn't I born in Asia or South America?" "Why were my parents MY parents??" When I say I was asking these questions from a young age, I mean YOUNG! I had to have only been about 5 or 6. I was recently "Saved" and being indoctrinated with this idea that I was going to go to Heaven now because I loved Jesus. "But what about kids in other countries where they don't have Jesus?" I didn't think it was fair that I got to go to Heaven simply because I was lucky enough to have been born in Christian America.... I spent a total of 19 years being fully immersed in Christianity, trying my hardest to fit in, toe the line and be the best Christian girl I could be.

At 19, I moved out of my dad's house and to a new state. I still called myself a Christian, but I wasn't living like one any more. It wasn't until I was about 24 that I realized that Christianity just didn't fit me anymore. I wasn't a Christian any more, but I didn't know what I was. I stumbled upon a Witchcraft blog on Pinterest and realized that it could actually work for me!! Through my investigation into Witchcraft, I discovered Paganism. I feel like I've finally found something that suits my soul! I never quite fit in Christianity. It always felt like I was wearing something that "looked fine" but was uncomfortable, I just couldn't figure out exactly what was off. Paganism fits so much better!! It's customizable! I can tailor it to fit me and my life style! Perhaps that's "taking the easy way" through religion, but I don't think it is! I think, what's the point of being religious if it makes you have to contort and change to be able to claim the title? I'm just so much more comfortable now!

I just wanted to thank you so much for coming to hang out with me!! I really look forward to interacting with you and getting to know you!
























  

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